One fruit of the Spirit that I have trouble with is patience. Ask me for kindness, you got it! You want gentleness, I’ve got a fresh supply. But patience…oh patience. Ever since I was a little tyke, I can see my lack of patience, even though I’ve tried to deny it definitely. The evidence is one such home video of my 3rd birthday. Daddy said that I had a present, but then he went too far. He said that he’d give it to me for Christmas. My first response was a dragging and complaining “NOOO! I waaant it!”
Patience. Whether it’s waiting for a new possession, a crowded hallway in school, an upcoming weekend, a holiday, or my life to just scurry on by–patience is quite involved in my life (or at least the lack of it). I love to be able to have a grasp on life’s situations, and when those life situations are far away, then I feel as if I can have no grasp at all. Therefore, my problem.
David must have had a real inspiration from God to put the line “Wait patiently for the Lord” twice in Psalm 27. God probably knew that I’d be reading it someday and thought it’d be fun to make me reflect a ton. Personally, I don’t think it’s a funny prank. But I suppose it’s best for me to have to deal with my patience problems the most helpful place possible: and that’s in the presence of God.
When I turn to God, I find stillness and calmness. When I’m impatient, I find just the opposite–I find stress and worry and fear. But my life should be still and calm. That’s why when I feel impatient, I need to wait patiently for the Lord to act in my life. I know it’s hard, but when I surrender control of my life to the Heavenly Father, I will feel even more at control knowing that I’ve lost control. It’s amazing the ways God works sometimes! (Did I say sometimes? I mean all the time!)