“And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”
I’ve heard/read this passage too many times to count probably. I know that we aren’t supposed to live like the “world” does, filling our desires with lust, pride, and sin. I know that we’re supposed to surrender to God daily, laying our lives at His feet for Him to use at His will. I know that God wants me to worship Him with all that’s within me and to love Him unconditionally. Yes, I’ve heard the explanation of these verses thoroughly and clearly so as to not destroy or dement the meaning. However, it seems that I’ve tried to make the meaning perfectly put in my head that I forget to actually think about what these verses mean and fully apply them to my life.
Lately in my life I’ve become very discouraged by what I see around me. Everyday when I walk into school, I have felt more weighed down and tired–like I am carrying a weight on my back. I feel so beat down by heavy spirits in my school, and it’s sometimes so overwhelming. I just wish I could communicate more of Christ’s love to others, but it seems like so many times I fail sharing how great God is in my life and how great He can be in others’ lives. Fear has overcome me, and I have gone through every day consumed by some sort of vice that has gripped me back from the fullness of happiness and joy. I suppose these bad feelings have just come gradually–through many circumstances in my life like change and grief.
Anyways, I was reading Romans 12, and these first two verses stuck out to me. When I truly surrender my whole self to God and I am a living sacrifice, God can use my brokenness to help others know Him. When I back away from wanting the world’s and others’ approval, and I solely want God’s approval and love, I will truly find out what God wants for me in my life. What a wonderful promise!!
I want my mindset to be changed by God. I want to see my life as He purposes. In Romans 11:29, Paul writes, ” For God’s gifts and his call can never be withdrawn.” How encouraging!! God knows the plan He has for us, and He can use our uncomfortability and even our weaknesses to put toward the call He has for us and the gifts He has provided us with. Only God knows…He may even use the hardest situations in our lives to show us what our gifts are.